A 25 year old single English guy just posting what I like. A good way to get to know me and what I like is looking at what I post here. Everything from Pokemon to Zelda to Tales Of games, Fullmetal Alchemist to Bleach to Soul Eater, funny gifs to cute dogs to attractive guys, all found in one convenient place. Enjoy! ^^
I love who I am and think I deserve everything in the world, a great guy who loves me, money, a pack of dogs lol a nice house in canada with a garden, famous author, running a charity for animals lol
But I also think I’d fail at all of that stuff, I’d be a burden and a dead weight to anyone who wants to love me, and that is struggle to let them in
But when it looks like I’m losing them I dig in my claws and try and drag them in and not let them leave even though I don’t feel I deserve them.. I don’t mean to do it I just… Apparently I’m an expert of self sabotage… I can’t seem to find the ability to do a job, let alone get a job but also can’t find what I’m really passionate about at the moment, I feel blocked and like I just need something, just one thing to go right… Just one pick me up or something.
That’s probably the most supportive message I’ve had recently. You really understand how I’m feeling right now. Thanks *hugs*
I’m done chasing down things I want, I’m done putting myself in a stupid position, I’m done fighting the voice in my head, I just can’t do it anymore.
Not saying forever but for now, if I can’t sleep, I’m not gonna try, if I like a guy I’m not gonna try and get him to talk to me, if I don’t feel like I can get out of bed I won’t get out of bed.
I just don’t feel like there’s anything to fight for anymore but myself, I can’t help how I feel.
It’s a mental situation I’m in, but I can’t sort it out in my head. I am a nice guy, I’m generous, kind, giving, loving, Intelligent, serious, funny guy, anyone would be extremely lucky to have me.
At the same time I feel like I’m broken, ruined and just a drain and a burden and I don’t deserve anyone… I am just I don’t know
That’s the only way I can describe it… I just don’t know…
And that summarises the last two years of my life lol